I have a hard time with the concept of God. I was not brought up in a religious family. I believe there is something beyond myself, but I just dont know how to think of it or experience it.
I was brought up in family where God was portrayed as judgmental and punishing. I cant even hear the word God without feeling anxious. How am I supposed to open to God when I believe that God is controlling?
How can I believe in God when there are so many bad things that hap…